yesterday was a really awful day. i cried and cried like my tears were worthless. maybe they are. but i think i should start treating myself better.

it was really so bad. it hurts so bad i just wished i could disappear. for good.

this shouldn't be the case for two people in love.

i havent been on my best behaviour, not when it comes to his brothers. it's really a pretty sensitive issue and i just can't help myself to keep my cool whenever they are around. i cant blame them if they don't like me because i haven't been giving them reasons to. i don't know. i've really tried, but it is so not me. :(

it's just so hard dating him and having to accept his brothers as mine. it's really tough.

for whatever i've typed in my previous entry, i just can't let him go. i really can't find reasons to let the man of my dreams slip past me, over arguments so absurd and minute. it holds till date that i see a future with him. and i'm not gonna let that crash and burn.

it's tough. i wished i could just call someone up and cry my heart out. i really do. i wished there's someone out there who, without fail, is there for me. someone besides my boyf. and that someone is my bff. it's kinda hard to admit the fact there's no such someone for me. at least not anymore. :( it really sucks being me, that i can't lower my pride or shed the facade that i've been unknowingly put on.

but i'll live.

all is good once again. hopefully not short-lived.

i realised the way to fulfill anything is to say (write) it out and have people know it, so that they can be the source of motivation to achieve my goals. so here it is,

i'm gonna try so hard to be really understanding and supportive for my baby. even though it's quite an uphill task. for him, i'm just gonna do it. roars. there it is, i've said it. and i mean it. :)

so after 3 MAJOR arguments in 2 days :(((( we are finally good! THANK GOODNESS! it was so bad that i thought there wasn't any rainbow after the rain.

we went to get my camera!!!! :DDD ecstatic!! :D my baby got it for me! HAHA. ;p but i'm gonna pay him back by saving the money for his aussie funds!! sweet right? ;p and guess what!! my camera is PINK! :D alright, maybe no surprises here. HAHA. oh well, it's PINK and it's SONY!! awesome!! :D

SUPER BROKE NOW! because ive gotta save up for the aussie trip! (just in case it's materialising!) haha

love love love <3

our 8th month in 6 days' time! :)

so after getting the camera, we went to watch VALENTINE'S DAY at TM GV! :D taylor swift is kinda unbearable in the movie. -.- she's one of the driving factor that i wanna watch the show! and jacob black! ;p julia roberts is sooo pretty!! movie ended 2358, guess what! all the doors to tampone are CLOSED!! so we had to walk down the slopes of the carpark to get the car. stupid. -.- baby drove me back, stayed awhile and left for the airport to pick his mummy and sister! YAY! we're trading our alcohol! lisi got belvedere for me the other time, and baby got his baby to get grey goose! we're gonna exchange our bottles!!!! :D why? cos he loves belvedere and me, grey goose! :D he's got himself a good deal! grey goose is 10bucks cheaper!! ;p

ps. glad - thanks girl! :) i'll see you on sat!!!! :DDDD
:) - thanks for sticking up for me (if you are) :) you are?