i need someone who puts me as his top priority.. someone who thinks the world of me. someone who doesn't go clubbing.. and it seems like the someone is not quite you.

i don't know.

we've had thousand and one arguments and it's always about your 'brothers'. i mean, cmon, it's me against your brothers. (note:PLURAL) it doesn't seem to occur to you how freaking tough it is on me, trying to make my effort count. it's not easy but i never did complain, until now. because it doesn't seem like you understand the shit i'm going through.

we're gonna celebrate v day tmr. but the irony is that i don't feel the love, so why pay tribute to the day of love.

maybe im just tired and sprouting nonsense now.

but im just kinda affected by all of it.

you're always the image of the perfect boyf, while i seem like the obnoxious girlf that whenever problems occur, ppl naturally jump to the guns and assume its my fault. i wont deny i can be (and am) obnoxious at times when im mad, but it's not always my fault.

it's just so tiring. i'm dating you, not your brothers.

things aren't all pretty btwn my bff and i. it takes hell lot for me to call someone 'bff', but someone is coming in btwn us and i can't pretend that i like him. i really can't bring myself to do it. and the only way out is to distance myself from you. i did it once, it sucks but if i really have to do it, i'll just make it happen, even at the expense of our friendship.

argh im just sucha screwed up case now. BIG TIME.

i skipped two days of classes straight. GREAT.