i had six great months with him, six months of honeymoon.
now i've gotta snap back to reality. life isn't as picturesque as it seems to be.

we argued tonight again. like totally not surprised. that's because i caught my boyf staring at a girl LONGER than necessary. fine, you want to look at pretty girls, go ahead. but don't be transfixed and get caught by me. like FUCK YOU LAH. so fucking pissed off. and know what's worse? the girl isn't hot/pretty/sexy AT ALL. -.- she was wearing this black bodycon dress to eat prata. not sour grapes, but she's really not hot can. if she's hot, i can understand! but she's NOT AT ALL. it's a fucking insult to me.

FUCKING INSULTED.

one more time. you just have to fucking screw up one more time.

i seriously think i deserve better.

i asked myself if my feelings for him have changed. and i realised i can't say with conviction that i still feel the same as i did for him six months ago.

let's see what's gonna happen.

anyway, im determined to shed off the 2kg i've gained since i got together with him.
no more suppers, no more snacking.