argh!
im so annoyed with myself. i think i got too serious with phillip wayyyy too fast, and this is not so good. i admit i've been thinking quite abit. with him going ntu come august, and us barely getting to meet once a week. argh. it's not gonna be easy, and i won't pretend that i'm okay with it.

i never quite agree with people who thinks the world of love, cos i don't like to feel defenceless. but i can't deny that i'm feeling pretty vulnerable nowadays when it comes to him.

i really appreciate him calling me even though his friends are over at his place; i didn't expect the call at all. so it was indeed a pleasant surprise. im kinda used to having him call every night. but i hate it when he ends the conversation so abruptly. it makes me go wtf.

damnit, what the hell am i getting myself into.

im really quite undecided now.
i want things to work out, but at the same time, im kinda afraid.

argh. wtf wtf wtf.

and this fking cashier screamed at me for no reason. fk. i was so fking mad.