when i get pissed off, phillip tries to coax me, but after awhile, he loses his patience, and he gets mad too. that's when things get blown out of proportion. and that's what happened this morning and tonight. :(

we had a fight this morning (after so long) :( sigh. thought it'll be all peaceful for us. but it was not to be. so we went on to do our own stuff till dinner. phillip asked me out for dinner at THE BARK CAFE. so i was excited of course. glad that things are fine.

his first time there, my second.

dinner was average, ambience great, company perfect. :)

went to changi beach after that. we were looking at stars and suddenly things went wrong. he said smth which i reacted strongly against. and in retrospect, it was really uncalled for. so we ended up arguing again. :( damn shitty. so i threw a fit and refused to get into his car. (i can't go off cos my hp is with him!) then he finally cajoled me into the car and all is well, for awhile.

rah. if the ride home was unbearable, i don't know how to describe the situation in my room.

i hugged cookie and i cried. didnt know i cried so bad until i realised his fur is wet with my tears. so i decided to heck it and get my shower, and here i am typing this.

it was just a day filled with both pleasant and unpleasant events. and i wished we hadn't spoilt the date. which was otherwise picture perfect.

i'm blogging this down despite knowing that my blog is not as private as it should be, that there are many privy eyes out there, strangers who are genuinely interested in my rants and those who are gloating at how bad things turned out tonight. i'm doing this because i need to be reminded of how wry things can be if i don't mellow down.

the problem with us both is that, im impatient as anyone can be. and phillip is the exact opposite. he takes his time to calm down and deal with issues. he needs to cool off before he can talk things through. i can't. i have to talk things through immediately. that's the most glaring difference between the two of us. so damaging that it can break us.

i just don't get it. sometimes our pride gets in the way and we just make things alot worse off that it actually is. :(

alright. he's calling. blog tmr.

class tmr. sigh.